Chiara Capello

I just had another very interesting week, very full. As I started reading Scroll VI of Og Mandino’s book, I feel emotionally charged and I change my emotions quite frequently. I look strange for my family members. It was never like that in my life before. Probably, with this course, I am changing so much, being in the process of letting my old self die. I also think I really need to learn to be the Master of my emotions. I appreciate a lot the proposal made by Mark J. to find space and time to spend 3 days in silence. It is much needed! My head is so full with all the things I learn recently.  I need time to assimilate them, to digest them..I used to do that when I was young. I always appreciated to be alone and in silence. I could find myself. Then, all the commitments of work and family, did not make space for me to do that again.

I  then decided to book a flight for the weekend to Nice, my favorite place on earth, where I would like to live in the future and where I lived in the past. I could not believe how easy was to organize that. I immediately found cheap flights (amazing! Only few days before departure), I found a good hotel and a babysitter for my kids. Everything fell into place easily. Tomorrow, I will go…I am dreaming about that. To be alone and silent, meditating near the sea in the sun…walking around, searching for the perfect house I would like to live in…it will become my reality. It will manifest,  I am sure. I will also take advantage of that moment to do a bit of cleansing and fasting, as spring is approaching and my body needs to heal, after the strong experiences of week 20 (see my post: fear really made me sick…).

I decided to go away alone, because I know that with the kids I could not keep the silence…they are always calling me, asking thinks…impossible.

Something strange happened this week: on Wednesday, I lost my voice. I could not teach yoga anymore. It is an interesting sign for me that I have to rest a bit and especially to be careful on how much I tend to use my voice and dissipate my energy. Time to recharge! I will relate about the experience of Silence in my next post. Stay tuned!

This week, I decided to become more organized (it was the virtue I was focusing on, in my Franklin’s makeover). I succeeded. I also decided to devote more time to my daily meditation and I got interesting insights. I am still working on overcoming fear and especially on practicing forgiveness toward myself. Then, everything reached a new level and I understood that I am the person that I am now, also because of the choices I have done in the past. My law studies were not done for nothing, they can still help me in this new path of being a Yoga teacher and an Artist.

During the week, I felt inspired to watch a you tube video of Swami Sivananda (my Sampoorna yoga lineage comes directly from him), where I discovered that he talks about all the material that we are applying in the Masterkey course. I was moved. He really was an enlightened Being and a yoga Master! You will be amazed! He resumes beautifully all the lessons in this course!! I know that I can combine easily my yogic path to my masterkey path and actually, Yoga brought me in here… I am so grateful for that.

I let now Master Sivananda speak for me, I really advice you to listen to the videos until the end…Om shanti

There comes the second video: enjoy!

I am living my most challenging week, since I started the Masterkey course in September. I have been through the process, with a lot of ups and downs, but now, since the introduction of the Hero’s journey, things are getting really hard. The Sunday webinar was difficult for me. I realized many important things about myself, that I did not know. The daily meditation helped me a lot to understand better what’s going on, right now.

I have a lot of resistance on thinking about death. I understand that the purpose here is to make us use our time on Earth the best way, without wasting it, as Og Mandino writes on Scroll V. I get this. I also find it absolutely true and motivating. I like reading this Scroll. The problem I have is to put a date for my own death, as requested in the last webinar. I am not at ease with that. I also refuse to think about the death of the persons I love most (family, friends). I am not ready to face that. I am scared. Fear is present in me and is disturbing my path, especially this week. I know that I still have a lot of work to do. I have also noticed that reading the obituaries, that we had to do some weeks ago, annoyed me a lot. I did not like this « exercise ». So, again, a sign of resistance from me. Interesting to notice and to observe… Lire la suite →